Don’t try to hide from your emotions.

Anger, sadness, desperateness, hopelessness, anguish, angst, depression__don’t try to ignore any of them. It is in trying to suppress them that you cause them to grow. Instead consider each emotion as an integral part of your Life’s journey.
Someone said something that pissed you off, or you did or said something that you shouldn’t have, so you are angry. You lost something, someone, so you feel sad about it. You want something that isn’t available just now, so you are desperate. You feel that there is no hope in a situation where logically all the odds are against you. You feel anguish when you are betrayed. You seethe with angst when you find yourself alone in a fight against a system. And when nothing works your way, when you feel lost, let down and trampled over, you will be depressed. These are all real responses to realsituations in real Life.
There’s no way you can escape experiencing these emotions, or more in similar situations. You feel agonized and suffer only when you try to avoid experiencing these emotions. Instead embrace them. Accept them as a facet of your Life in the present. This is the way you will be able harness the emotion to connect with your inner core and learn to “live in this world and yet be above it.” Living in this world means living amid all the chaos, trials and tribulations. Being above these means to accept Life for what it is just now and know that at your deepest core, you will be untouched by all this change, all this chaos, all this turmoil.
There’s an interesting story that Osho, the Master, says in his inimitable style. Mr. Goldberg came home from the office unexpectedly and found his wife in bed with Mr. Cohen, the next-door neighbor. Distraught and angry, he ran next door and confronted Mrs. Cohen.     ‘Mrs. Cohen!’ he cried. ‘Your husband is in bed with my wife.’     ‘Calm down! Calm down!’ Mrs. Cohen said. ‘Look, don’t take it so hard. Sit down, have a cup of tea. Relax.’ Mr. Goldberg sat quietly and drank his cup of tea. It was then that he noticed a little glint in Mrs. Cohen’s eye. Coyly she suggested, ‘You want a little revenge?’ And with that they withdrew to the couch and made love. Then they had another cup of tea, then a little more revenge, a little more tea, more revenge; more tea….Finally Mrs. Cohen looked at Mr. Goldberg and asked, ‘How about some more revenge?’     ‘I will tell you, Mrs. Cohen,’ said Mr. Goldberg quietly, ‘to be truthful, I ain’t got no hard feelings left.’ The learning, says Osho, is, be what you experience for sometime and it will fade away. You resist it, you avoid it, you will be avoiding what Life has designed for you. And so it will chase you, haunt you, torment you and not allow you to live in peace.

So face Life’s myriad emotions, celebrate its various colors. Each event will leave you emotional in its own way. Difficult times for sure will leave you with painful experiences, but, in the end, if you embraced those moments, you will feel enriched, energized and stronger after you have been through them. You will realize, without them, you wouldn’t have the opportunity to be who you are __ centered, anchored, grounded and blissful! 

To rid yourself of your negativity, go to the source within!

Learning to deal with emotions you don’t want in you, requires a deeper understanding of yourself. You are the source of all your joy, your miseries, your habits and your overall attitude to Life.

Fundamentally, no one wants to be angry or sad, worrisome or anxious, fearful or complaining. Ask anyone and you will be told that all they want is to be happy. Yet why do the other emotions come into play?

The simplest way to understand this is to know yourself. Let’s say someone did something nasty to you. Broke your trust, or cheated you or conspired against you. Then your entire system erupts in response and emotions like anger and hatred come to the fore. “How dare you?” and “Let me teach you a lesson!” are the manifestations of these emotions. And you project your anger or hatred on that person or on that object. That is really of no use. Because while that person will perish, at times, unable to bear your shower of negativity, the source also gets scarred. And the source is you. So, if you want to check your emotions, go to the source. This happens also when you are sad. Someone dies. And you feel sad. You feel infinitely sad for days, weeks, months. The person who died is no longer there, the object of your grief is absent. But you keep on projecting your emotion on your memories. These emotional projections are like cinematic projections. They are magnified and become larger that you! They rule you, possess you only because you allow them to. For them to become inconsequential, you must go to the source. And that source is within you, not in the object that you project your emotions on. So, if you want to get rid of your anger or sorrow or fears or anxiety, stop focusing on what triggered it and focus inside you, on what’s continuing to cause it! You will need to turn off the projector if you want to stop the projection!

We are doing this projection business all the time. With a variety of emotions. In India people go to the beach for various reasons early in the morning. A jogger sees the rising sun in the Bay of Bengal and feels refreshed and energized. A child sees it and is excited about wanting to make sand castles. A man sprinkling the ashes of his dear father who he has just died the previous evening, wonders sadly, fearfully, anxiously, how the first day of his Life without his father will be. A lady looks at the sun and later at the sea, which appears surreptitiously calm, fearfully and angrily wondering how it will react the next moment – because that has been her experience with the tsunami of 2004 when she lost her entire family! The fact is that the sun and the sea are the same. It is the same sun and sea that people are seeing. But each one’s projection is different.

So the hatred, the sorrow, the fear, the worrying about that comes out on to objects that are causing you to behave that way are actually a reflection of how you are at the source. Some part of you dies each time you express yourself with any of these negative, debilitating emotions.

That’s why in Buddhism, everyone is encouraged to be a Buddha. And a Buddha is about compassion. In being unmoved by what’s coming at him or her, the Buddha projects compassion, because she or he is compassionate at the core. To reach that state, we only have one way, to understand who we are. We are all centers of love. If we bail out all the negativity in us, what will be left is love. Become that center of love, and you will be unmoved. In fact, you will attract everyone in the Universe, just as a magnet does.

Osho, the Master, often shared this marvelous Zen story: “One of the greatest of Zen Masters, Lin Chi, used to say, “While I was young I was very fascinated by boating. I had one small boat, and I would go on the lake alone. For hours together I would remain there.” Once it happened that with closed eyes I was in my boat meditating on the beautiful night. One empty boat came floating downstream and struck my boat. My eyes were closed, so I thought, ‘Someone is here with his boat, and he has struck my boat.’ Anger arose. I opened my eyes and I was just going to say something to that man in anger, then I realized that the boat was empty. Then there was no way to move. To whom could I express the anger? The boat was empty. It was just floating downstream, and it had come and struck my boat. So there was nothing to do. There was no possibility to project the anger on an empty boat.” So Lin Chi said, “I closed my eyes. The anger was there, but finding no way out, I closed my eyes and just floated backward with the anger. And that empty boat became my realization. I came to a point within myself in that silent night. That empty boat was my Master. And now if someone comes and insults me, I laugh and I say, ‘This boat is also empty.’ I close my eyes and I go within.””

Maybe you may want to use this technique of the empty boat. It works miraculously!